Here we go!

I decided to take some time to write out some of my thoughts. Not really sure anyone will care or even want to read. However, I hope this helps someone smile. You gotta smile once in a while!



So, my Love Boy has ITP. You can look that up. It is long and is scary sounding. To sum it up, he has low platelets. Why? We just do not know. This started a month ago and we just keep going and checking each week. He is out of daycare for the threat of hitting his head is high and well...he can bleed. He bruises just by looking at him...not really, but I swear he can! It is very scary. :(

I have to go to Vandy's Children's hospital. I go to hematology/oncology and I really was not expecting what I saw. All these children were sick. They were getting treatment and it was the infusion center. O.K. I was NOT expecting this. My baby does not have cancer, but all these children did. They were missing hair or swollen or so ill they could not even walk. As I stared at these sweet children, I realized there was no sadness. I wanted to cry my eyes out, but no one was sad? I am amazed by these children and their strength. I am amazed by their parents and their strength. I have learned from them in just these few weeks.

One of those lessons happened today that made me to be amazed by these children even more. I have a cold and I surely did not want to make anyone sick! So for the blood work check, I wore a mask. As I focused on Love Boy another little boy stared at 'me'. I kind of felt uncomfortable for I really wanted to look back, but he had no hair and ....it was just uncomfortable. I walked by him as his stare was intense and I finally made eye contact. With such concern on his face he said, "Are you o.k.?" Am I O.K.?!?! I wanted to ask him 1000 questions if he were o.k., what was wrong with him, etc... This little boy had so much going on in his life and he asked 'me' if I were o.k.? For this visit, I stood out in the waiting area. People stared at me. This sweet little guy was worried about me. I assured him I was and that I simply had a cold. He was pleased with my answer. :)

I understand why I was uncomfortable. I want to know if those children are o.k.? In reality, some are not but they are trying to beat their illness. To that little boy, thank you for your strength. God Bless you and I pray you beat your illness and I will not have to see you again for no more treatment will be needed.

Love,
Michele